Miss You

I miss you terribly
All I want to do is pick up my phone and
text you
I follow up constantly to see if
you have tried to contact me
but you haven't
You...
I don't get what happened?
How did you stop liking me so fast?
Do you even
miss me?
And I don't know what to do
because it doesn't seem like
anything I do will make it
like it was.
So I'm stuck missing you
unable to do anything about it.
Is this my fate?

Lovely Heart

I sit at home...content
This is a new feeling
I am the one
who always needed to be doing
something
out
about
fidgeting with the worlds problems
fixing my own aggravations
irritations
fiddling
There has never been any time for
stillness
But now
there is
There is time for quiet
and relaxation
and time to sit idly
and let those
problems
take care
of themselves/
It's good to be me
Welcome back hon.

Maybe I'm not

Maybe I'm not
what I deign to be
a shadow
of all the colors
seen
whispers from places I can't get to
genuflect
whipping
and whipping
and whipping
that I may bleed
to prove
to myself
that I am
all that I think

Humiliation

Where you have to come up through
humiliation
To say something
No pride
Licking the floor
so that you can taste the sky
This incrimintating
mind state
must end
Pride
is okay
when you are okay with
who you are
no one else
should
have
the ability
to define
you
So why
is it
that this place
this space
that I live
requires
that I
lick their boots
with my hat
in hand
to speak
my truth?

Predator

You are a predator
Preying on my genius
My friends
My style
This might be a surprise to you
but I know
about you
and it is okay
for you to be who you are
because you don't know
no better
than to mindlessly
manipulate
rather than build your own
sucking on those
that have
for yourself
who so painfully
has little